by Barry | Jan 7, 2016 | Inside Out
I intended to stay out of trouble. I also intended to drink. For me the two were incompatible, but despite the evidence I refused to believe this. I was sure I could handle the booze, sure I could stay out of trouble. The wall of denial was already high. My buddy...
by Barry | Jan 30, 2016 | Inside Out
Intermission: Visiting the Present It’s been quite a while since I have added anything to Inside Out. I do plan to get back at it soon, but my son was born on January 17th, and since then the past has mattered less than it ever has in my life. I haven’t had the time...
by Barry | Nov 4, 2016 | Inside Out
There were four of us who had been drinking together, though it was obvious who had drunk the most, as was usual when I was hanging out with friends, trying to be a hot shot, slamming drinks into me much too closely together. I skipped along on my crutches, using my...
by Barry | Nov 23, 2016 | Inside Out
Bad Trip I went a few days without drinking after the rec center incident. Only a few: Less than two weeks later I was again drunk, wandering around the rec center, totally out of my mind and out of control, carrying a baseball bat. The bat was hidden up the sleeve of...
by Barry | Apr 17, 2017 | Inside Out
Welcome to the Mental! I only had two months left on my sentence – I was a ‘Short Timer’. Time was dragging on at a snail’s pace though, and two months felt like a very long time to me. I was in what we referred to as the “New Hole”. It was segregation, but a step up...
by Barry | Jan 29, 2018 | Inside Out
Easy Time in the Mental Once I was through the inner door and inside what would be my new home, I tried to put on my tough guy persona. It didn’t seem to want to fit. I was shaking too badly to look tough. I was given a tour of the area – TV Room, Card Room, Cafeteria...
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